Endless hell.

I smoked my first pack of cigarettes this past week. I want some more, but I have to sneak to get them. I'm just depressed  as hell today. WHAT ELSE IS NEW.
I'm trying to be optimistic about things.

Tomorrow I'm going to fast/detox/whatever. I'm bloated and I was to lose some pounds. I'm going to get an infusing water bottle, hopefully, but I'm definitely getting some lemons and cucumbers. Basically that's all I'm going to consume for a few days. Right now I'm eating a jalapeno double from mcdonald's, lol. So long, food.