School started yesterday. My senior year. It really sucked. I'm pretty bummed. It wasn't how I wanted it to be. My depression has come back really bad for the past month, so I'm on Zoloft again. Now my anxiety has come back full forced. Before I even got to my 1st block yesterday, I has a meltdown and wanted to leave. My brain is so fucked up. I wish I were normal. I'm going to see my psychiatrist and get some Ativan to help my anxiety for a little while.
I have to fix my schedule asap though. My 3rd block causes me hell. It's art and I'm all alone in there, and I'm just not good at art. Then I have a really shitty lunch with only ONE girl to sit with, and she is kind of annoying. All of my friends have different lunches. I already filled out a form to turn in to request a new schedule. I'm going to replace art with French II with my friend, then I'll have lunch with her, then for 4th block I'll have Keyboarding with another friend. Everything will get better, I know that. I'm just impatient and anxiety ridden. Hopefully by tomorrow I will get the good news that my schedule is revised to my liking.
Writing all of this is helping me and my thoughts. A few hours ago I had a total breakdown...

Well, since my last post. That money came and I got some clothes and a great camera. I also got Sims 3 Showtime and Skyrim.... Skyyyyriiiimmm is muh lyf. I'm a level 27 (I think) wood elf named Fawn xD She is also a werewolf and is married to a fellow werewolf named Farkas. And I have Shadowmere, buwahahaa! I can't wait to get xbox live and get the Dawnguard dlc.... vampire lord here I come!
Oh, and court. Wait, first off, I didn't complete community service; however, I haven't heard any news about that... maybe they'll forget c: But court, I went at the beginning of the month, they extended to last Monday, then once more extended it now to September 5th. They are waiting on the results of my "nasal endoscopy", which I will delightfully get to experience next week. ._.

Well I did lose those extra pounds, and I can fit a size 7 jeans!! I went down two sizes. However, I'm not 119, but I will be. I'm like 122/123, which is cool for now. I've been waiting on my mom to get her college money so we can go shopping and get a new camera and such, and it is sooo late! I'm going crazy waiting for it! It's suppose to get her before August.. 3 more days, or 2 not counting Sunday since mail doesn't run. If it doesn't come today, I'm going to puke on someone's face.

I'm annoyed!! God!! I reached 119 lbs, but my swallowing has been getting better so I've been drinking more stuff. So one morning last week I drank like 6 Ensures in a row and gained 5 lbs. So now I'm 125. I'm so upset. You'd think you wouldnt gain weight with only liquids.

Summer break has been boring as hell. Everyone is always too busy to hang out, and I am always too sick. I don't know how I'm going to do community service. I mean, I'll definitely be able to finish on time, but I want to finish sooner than that.
July, however, is looking pretty nice! I want to experiment on my looks. I'm going to go blonde.. dun dun dun. It's just something I NEED to try. I'm aiming for a nice, natural looking blonde, not a white/bleached deal. I'm hoping I'll only need two bleaching sessions, and that the toner will do a good job of getting rid of brassiness. I've already picked out a nice deep conditioner. My hair is pretty strong, so things should go well. I'm trying to do this in a 3 day period though. I'd also like to try dark purple sometime, unless I really like blonde and keep it. I'm going to cut my bangs too. Not straight across, but angled-like.
Next month I'm also going to buy Sims 3 World Adventures and/or Showtime, and I'm going to begin running 2 miles per day with new exercise clothes! Yeeee!! =3 Alssooooo, whenever this may be, before school starts I want my eyebrow done and a tattoo. For my tattoo, it's going to be a reward for losing weight. I want it on my hip area, and it will be cherry blossoms with the kanji japanese symbol for "dream". I drew out the symbol myself, so it's specialzzz.
Eh, anyway. I feel pretty yucky right now. There's nothing to do either. I guess what I should do is sleep.

I want to do something crazy with my hair next month. Purple or blond, hmm. Both will be done, but which first? I may go with purple. And I'm going to cut my bangs. I also want a piercing and tattoo before school starts.

Anyway. Fuck Stardoll.