I wish I knew how to put up a better layout. I use to be good at that stuff, but now I actually kind of don't care.
I'm glad it's October. It's definitely fall outside. There's a lot of stuff I like to do in the fall, but I hardly get to. Like the fall festival, haunted houses, carving pumpkins, etc. It's kind of sad to be single right now. I want someone to do couple's stuff with. It's whatever. On Halloween I was really wanting to drink, but my friend made plans to go with this random kid to the club. I don't have anyone to get drinks from. I wish things were okay with Billy and I. I want normalcy back. This weekend I'm supposed to see my other friend. I won't believe that until it happens. She's basically ignored me for 3 months because she got a new boyfriend.

I was also thinking about seeing a therapist again and getting anxiety medicine. The only thing that has ever worked for me is Ativan.

I have this big bullshit college paper that I need to be writing right now. I dread it all.