So on Tuesday a guy mailed my mom's whole wallet back!! ♥

& I got my prom dress today!! Tuesday my mom is ordering p90x FINALLY. We have to wait until Tuesday because we are going to be billed each month (for 3 months) for the payment, so that way we will have money in the bank each time. I'm excited. I've waited so long! I want to begin asap! I want to try and slim up as much as I can by prom (because the dress makes my butt look large, lol.) I bought some nice exercise shorts from Wal-Mart, but they didn't have my size so I need to return them. They better have it this time >:P Also, when the orderly is finally placed, I'll have to begin my minor workouts again (like lunges, squats, and such) to warm up my body - it's strongly advised o.0 Because p90x is going to whip my ass...off.

Here's the dress!


Notice the lines on the left pic? I finally got my good "photography" camera back, but since it wasn't used for so long, the shutter is stuck open so all my pics have lines and are usually overexposed. I can only take decent pics, like on the right, if I use the video option. -_-

I met my attorney today and I basically will go to juvie for 2-6 days. Wonderful. However, she is trying to work with my school lessen that amount or even not let me go at all and just do community service...I hope so!!! Christ. This sucks so much because I'm not a BAD KID. I don't belong in juvie. However, my court date was moved to April 16th.....PROM WEEK. WTF, really?? I am NOT missing my first prom. If I go for 6 days or more I will miss it. Fuck no. I'm still buying my dress. I don't have an extreme case, I'm not failing any classes, so why would I go 6 days. God. I'm I must go to juvie, at least give me only 2 days.

GOD. So on Friday my mom got her $600 college money. Yay, right? Uh no.

The next fucking day she was a the laundromat and EVERYTHING was stolen. Her whole wallet. The money, social security cards, drivers license, medical cards, ev-re-thing. I'M SO MAD. OF COURSE we can never have money or be happy, of course!! I didn't get to order p90x, and I can't get a prom dress. I have to wait for this stuff for who knows how long! We've waited 3 months for this money to arrive! Perfect fucking timing.

P90x is the least of my worries. We can get that on the 1st or 3rd. My prom dress issue kills me. Harrison said he would help em get one, but I don't want his money unless it's a last resort. My mom's friend from Arizona is sending in money though and I don't know how much. I'd like a little over $200, that will give me a decent cheap dress. I'm just so mad and upset. I also wanted to dye my hair. I cried for like 30 minutes over this.

And of course, whoever the fuck stole it is obviously going to use the money for drugs. No one in their right mind would steal a whole damn purse.

My weight is still plateaued. Since my b-day, I have been eating everything lol...but my weight is still basically the same. I've decided I'm going to give P90X a try...which will kill me, lol. I'm very excited! It WILL work if I stick with it. My eating can be easily controlled, it's just sticking with the insane workouts. I say insane with seriousness...this is the god of all work outs. I'm going to end up getting a 6 pack, lmao. I'm also going to try really hard to eat better and not starve myself. I really need energy for this work out. I also need to focus on sleeping better and staying less stressed.

Now, as long as I don't have to go to fucking juvie, things should be fine. >:|

I'm not happy.

My weight has plateaued. It's been stuck at 139-140 for days. The only solution is for me to eat more to get my metabolism back.

Secondly, tomorrow is my birthday and my boyfriend OF COURSE has to work from 3-10pm. Our plans were completely abolished. So now, I have nothing to do, because I don't want to be with my friends. I want to be with him, like we intended. I still get to see him at 10 and I'll stay the night and go out to Olive Garden for lunch (oh and i just realized, for lunch it would look a little silly of me to get all dressed up, as opposed to dinner. ugh.)

I just ate some chips and I don't feel bad for doing so...yet. T___T I think my period is coming.

Weight loss has been going well (: I'm basically 141 right now...only about 5 more lbs until my goal weight #1. I can't wait to have my birthday dinner with my boyfriend next week :3 I hope to be in the 130's by then! I already picked out the outfit I want to wear and it looks lovely. However....


My friend is such a little bitch. She is insensitive & narcissistic. She is ALWAYS bringing me down. I can't stand it. And she mocked me because I'm unable to eat well. I told her about it today and she said "Fucking sorry? Chill out." Fuck you too. The 'however' part from above comes in to play because I butchered my leg and arm. My leg is the worst. I'm hopping to get it cleared up as much as possible by next Friday because I'm wearing a dress.

I need to sleep.