It's not fair that I'm the one who has to hurt from this, after I tried so hard to prevent it from happening. I feel so bad, I feel so guilty. I couldn't make you feel like I was worth keeping. I should have kissed you more, and I should have called you sweet things more. I regret not doing that enough. Yet, I also feel so deceived and betrayed, we both should have moved on from our pasts to a new experience together. The past is suppose to be in the past. And I don't understand why you made that decision, I don't think I ever can because it is ridiculous to keep holding yourself back from new things.
It's been 6 days and I don't know why I can't stop feeling this way. It's such misery, and it's stupid. I would have done so much more to keep you, knowing that this was our outcome.